May 2004


general28 May 2004 12:33 pm

my attention is so easily cast aside…

peace… love… bdg…

general28 May 2004 10:28 am

the “God’s Banner Ads” campaign… my latest distraction…

peace… love… bdg…

general27 May 2004 03:10 pm

so, this is something i wrote out of my own sarcastic mean spiritedness… word of advice: think twice before asking me to help you with your resume…

To Whom It May Concern:

I’m looking for a job that suits my needs. I want a job that will fulfill me, define me, and leave me satisfied and content with my life. (Even in my thirties, I hold onto the American ideal that these qualities can be provided by having the right occupation). I want a job that fits in my schedule and is flexible. If it’s not convenient, then it must not be the right job for me.

I’m not entirely sure what the job you have available will entail, or even if I meet all the qualifications. I’m just certain that it must be better than my current position. At least there’s probably less to complain about. It’s not that I mind starting at the bottom and working my way up, but I’ve been there for three whole months and I’m not a store manager yet. How long do they expect me to wait? Anyway, I really can’t stand my current job.

Thank you for considering my application. I’ve attached my resume for your review. As you can tell, my work history includes a wide variety of short-term occupational commitments. I hope to hear from you soon; I think your job will complete me.

so then i got to thinking about this little cover letter… and i realized that many a church-folk look for the same things out of their church… as if going to church is for your benefit alone… it’s too bad…

peace… love… bdg…

general27 May 2004 11:42 am

Now Playing @ the TRu:

Mars ILL
Raw Material
“The Abolition of ManCHILD”

Cool Line:
“call me the 23rd letter, ’cause I double you”

general26 May 2004 10:51 am

so… does anyone else have cicadas?… my guess is that if you don’t have them, you don’t really know what they are… so this entry is dedicated to you…

there really aren’t any cicadas where my house is… and they’ve just started to infiltrate my work building… the parking lot and such… but yesterday, when i went to go look at live pictures of littler boy, i also got to see first hand the cicada hordes… as i drove over to the doctor’s office several of the drunken bugs careened off of my windshield and the sides of my car… then as i pulled into the parking lot, i noticed that it was moving… as was the building… the cicadas were practically tripping over each other… they were everywhere… flying into things… walking around the pavement… dead and rotting in their carcasses… stinking in the street… crinkling beneath my feet… and there’s the ever present sound of a ray gun from a bad Star Trek knock off… (i know it’s pretty funny that there are bad Star Trek knockoffs since they’re bad enough on their own)… anyway… if you’ve never seen cicadas…. they’re pretty nasty looking… they’ve got these wings that extend a little beyond their plump, iridescent bodies… and yesterday i swear i saw a two-headed one… unless they were… well… i’d rather not go there…

so… i feel like i’ve moved to Canada… the mail nazis have managed to hijack all my media parcels for the past two weeks or so… and they’ve decided that they don’t have to come by my house every day… just whenever they feel like it, i guess… i’m getting pretty darn ticked about it…

ok… here’s the one i skipped the other day…

The Ghost in the Machine (Part Eight)

alarm clocks are one of the few devices to have ascended from the very bowels of hades… there aren’t many people i know that wouldn’t agree that they are inherently evil… so anyway… i’ve had my alarm clock for several years and i’ve had minor struggles with it… but it all came to a head the other day when it went off twelve minutes BEFORE it was set to… well, i didn’t notice that right away as i groggily reached over and hit the snooze button… but, then when it went again in 3 minutes instead of the standard snooze length of nine minutes… i realized something was up… as it turns out, my alarm clock had given itself over to the darkside… even with the switch in the “off” position… and with the volume turned entirely down… i could not silence the speakers… the radio noises and static and i think some sort of evil incantations kept coming strong… and it continued throughout the day until i returned home and eventually slaughtered that devil…

so that’s that… now let me go answer the call of the anti-productivity meeting…

peace… love… bdg…

general25 May 2004 03:57 pm

… and what if i never posted again… what of that?

anyway… the Jars concert review is no longer forthcoming… it’s here… i guess i win dann-oh… peep peep…

peace… love… bdg…

general24 May 2004 11:30 am

so… i don’t normally title my entries… but this was simpy too fitting… let’s start back on Friday… i left work, went home, ate and then headed out to the Jars concert… which was very good… and included a spectacular surprise which i’ll only share with the good folks that read my forthcoming concert review… by the way, i’ve never really written a full concert review before… so it will be interesting to see how i end up approaching it… i have my plenary notes all prepared… just a matter of figuring out the best presentation… anyway… i got home a little after 1 from that show… which is really late for me… then i got up around 7 to begin my Saturday… my brother in law had come down sometime while i was at the show and he brought with him a few items to install around the new place… this included a garage door opener, a new faucet for the kitchen sink, and blinds for the bathroom, so that when i shower, i don’t put on a show for the neighborhood… anyway… that was my morning… i pretty much just worked on the garage door opener… and all the wiring and stuff… anyway… after all the installs, i took a quick (private) shower and we headed out… destination Locust Grove, VA for a Universal Royalty concert… so after a few miscues, we made it to our destination… it was shortly thereafter that my Saturday took a turn for the worse…

my first mistake was not bringing along my inhaler… (yes, i have asthma)… it wasn’t in the normal spot and we were somewhat hurried as we left… so, for one reason or other, it was left behind… and it was hot… the temperature was hanging around the upper 90s all afternoon and into the evening… the air was oozing with ridiculous levels of humidity… and so it was that somewhere during the barbeque and joking around with the band and some other friends, that i started to get short of breath… i didn’t think too much of it since i haven’t had any serious problems with it for quite a while… so, i just kept calm and quiet… did some breathing exercises and tried to cool off… (the house we were at was without a/c)… as the afternoon wore on and we were heading over to the venue, my breathing progressively got worse… and by the time we actually got to the church, i realized that i needed to get an inhaler and i needed it asap… initially i thought of heading back home (about an hour) to get my inhaler… but then i remembered that some of my friends had the same prescription… so i was able to cop a few hits from someone else’s inhaler… unfortunately, the attack had been going on for far too long and even though my breathing appeared to be clearer, i was suffering greatly from some intense chest pains, lightheadedness and nausea… i vomited a bit and it probably would’ve been a lot more except that i couldn’t get a deep enough breath to heave… so, anyway… i tried to fight through the pain and stuff, expecting it to pass fairly quickly… but it didn’t… i couldn’t breathe or move without jagged pains all throughout my upper body, but mainly on the left side of my chest… needless to say, my wife was concerned greatly as well… and once when she asked how i was i said that if i were to imagine what a heart attack felt like… this was how i thought it would be… bad choice of words, really but i wasn’t thinking all that well… see, my family has a really bad history of heart disease… last year on one day, i lost my grandfather and an uncle… my uncle to a sudden heart attack (not his first) and my grandfather to complications from a previous heart attack (he had been bed-ridden for months)… on that same day another of my uncles also had a fairly mild heart attack… anyway… it’s nothing to take lightly… so… i decided to head over to the nearest hospital since it wasn’t getting any better…

the hospital turned out to be a little over twenty miles away… and we got there a little after the show was supposed to be starting… i jokingly pointed out that i had wanted to see UR, not the ER… but anyway… we checked in and i was screened and entered into their system by a nurse that told me i was too young to have chest pains… (even though most of you consider me ancient)… and made plesant small talk as she took my blood pressure and pulse and stuff like that… as she took me back to the official room, where the doctor would see me, she mentioned that if i wanted my wife and daughter to come back i could just let her know… daughter? what the…? anyway… it took a good 45 minutes before the doctor actually saw me and he basically just listened to my breathing a little and said it sounded clear… then he sent someone in to give me a nebulizer, which she kept calling a legal bong… and i sat there breathing through that for what seemed like forever… then i got an ekg (electrocardiogram) and they said that my heart is pumping just fine… nothing seemed out of place… so it turned out to just be that because it was such a struggle to breath that all the muscles in my chest were inflamed and sore… and it got better throughout the night… so after an hour and a half detour to the night… we headed back to the church, having missed the entire show… and then i helped the guys break down the stage and load up their trailer… (probably not a good idea, but i’m stubborn)… and then after a while we headed home… i’m pretty bummed about missing the show, but i think i made the wiser decision… and my lungs are still a bit sore… but i would put it on the level of “i swam too many laps in a pool and swallowed a lot of chlorine” type of pain… so yeah… God is good and i’m still around to irritate everyone…

anyway… here’s something random… am i the only one that thinks it’s pretty funny that Project 86 is pushing for their fans to buy the new release even if they already bought the independant version of it?… i mean their songs are all about the evils of marketing and the manipulation of the media and stuff… i found it somewhat ironic… and funny, because i’m pretty twisted like that… ok… i’m off to accomplish at least one of the seven bazillion things that lay before me…

peace… love… bdg…

general21 May 2004 03:03 pm

what? why did i even click the “new entry” button… that was entirely random… anyway… i’m working on other things… maybe some other time…

peace… love… bdg…

general20 May 2004 03:29 pm

so there’s this that and the other thing that i’m supposed to get done… but i don’t know… man, i just don’t know… oh but hey, i am going to see Jars of Clay tomorrow night… that’s cool… and… um… here’s the rundown of my Tunnel Rats experience… well, the self-titled reviews anyway…

  • First the Renown Magazine one…
  • Then Hip Hop for the Soul snatched up the second one i wrote…
  • Next World of CM was gracious enough to pick up the third version
  • and finally, after much ado… i present to you… the official Tunnel Rats review… strictly for the TRu

    so… i squandered away much of the day, shaking my hips to Robert Randolph concert bootlegs and “this and that” (as opposed to “this, that and the other thing”… but i have a handful of sand that i can still redeem… i’m off to spill out the grains like a good boy…

    peace… love… bdg…

  • general19 May 2004 02:26 pm

    okay, fine… here’s the rest…

    Love

    Do you believe theres a difference between “love” and “in love”?: yes
    Is it better to have loved and lossed than to have never loved at all?: lossed? maybe this was supposed to be question 29..
    Are you romantic?: not for you
    Are you in a relationship now?: mmhmm
    If so, for how long?: several years
    Are you a virgin?: i have the cutest little boy ever…

    Ranomosity

    War: Good or Bad?: the song? pretty decnt
    What do you think of designer labels?: shouldn’t this be in the “Labels” section?
    Who’s skankier: Britney Spears or Paris Hilton?: skanky… oooh… who cares?
    What is it with guys and cars?: i feel the need… the need for speed…
    Do you sing?: yes
    If so, what part (Soprano 1,Alto 2, et cetera)?: i can fake vocals in all octaves
    Kiss or hug?: mmwah
    What color is your room?: what? why’s it gotta be a racial thing?
    How old is your mom?: you leave my mom out of this
    Black and white or color photos?: depends on what you’re shooting
    Who cuts your hair?: my wife
    What color is your toothbrush?: white and red
    What color is your hair brush?: where IS my hairbrush?
    What kind of hair products do you use?: shampoo
    Is K-Mart just the poor man’s Wal-Mart?: what does KMax have to do with Wal*Mart?
    Are you sXe?: i certainly hope not…
    Are you sexy?: “The TRu is never sexy”
    What color to people tells you looks nice on you?: color to people… um… ORANGE
    What color do you think looks nice on you?: orange
    Clothes shopping or grocery shopping?: CDs

    Who do you sit with at lunch?

    Do you like the sound of your own voice when you hear it played back?: i’m like an audio vampire, my voice doesn’t show up on tape…
    Who has the nicest speaking voice that you know?: Billy. as if that’s an actual person.
    What is the website for one of your favorite bands?: http://www.universal-royalty.com
    Do you prefer to date people younger, older, or the same age as you?: I kissed dating goodbye, silly.
    Do you listen to songs on repeat often?: only when there’s a ghost in the machine
    Who was the last person you hung out with?: little boy
    What did you and that person do?: he pushed me down and sat on my head…
    Do you use internet shorthand (i.e. “lol”, “brb”, “jk”, et cetera)?: in chatting, but if the little picture doesn’t show up, i get (*dj scratches*)-ed off real quick…
    How often do you bathe?: what are you, some kind of peeping tom? peep the TRu, not theTRu…
    Are you a people-pleaser?: are you pleased?
    Do you dye your hair regularly?: /me died blue
    What about your eyebrows?: right now they are angry
    Do you wear makeup?: you want some to cover up that black eye of yours? (what black eye? *punch* that one)
    If you answered “yes”, to #96, are you female?: is that the sXe one?
    Do you buy CDs edited or unedited?: unedited (*dj scratches*) (*dj scratches*)
    Can you beatbox?: mos def
    Does your mom like the song “Hey Ya” by OutKast?: stop talking about my mom

    no more…

    my head hurts… and it’s YOUR fault… i hope you’re happy…

    peace… love… bdg…

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