August 2004


general31 Aug 2004 10:19 am

oh here’s some insight as to what my mind does as i’m supposed to be sleeping… last night i watched “The Whole Ten Yards,” with Bruce Willis and Ms. Chanandelor Bong (that is, Matthew Perry)… and it was a mildly amusing comedy with a small handful of laugh out loud moments… but what really got stuck in my head was a religious parallel that came to my mind… (what? religious parallel in *that* movie?)… yeah, exactly… so here goes… let me know what you think… the movie opens with a mafia figure telling two boys to stop fighting and explaining that they need get along if they are ever going to succeed in life… presumably they are brothers, but i assume that one is more of an adopted son… so anyway, as an illustration of this bond that they need to have, the father figure takes a dollar bill (the first dollar he ever stole), tears it in half, splitting the serial number and gives each boy one half… he tells them that great fortune will be theirs because of this dollar bill, but that they will have to cooperate or else they won’t get any of it… that’s the back story…

– at this point, i’ll ask that you please keep in mind that the parallel i draw is not in any way a direct comparison, as there are some implications that would go against much of what i believe, it’s just something that jumped into my mind…

the action begins after the brothers have each gone their seperate ways… the father gets released from prison and wants the dollar bill back in tact for himself… and i think, that one brother (Bruce Willis) has already killed the other brother, but it’s somewhat unclear, because there’s a third son floating around the storyline and the father has one half of the bill already… but anyway… what came to mind was Abraham… yeah, from the Bible… he had two sons… one legitimately (Isaac) and one less than legitimately (Ismael) and they were both given a heritage and if they had worked together, a mighty, powerful nation of Israel may have been the result… instead, they were constantantly at war with each other, they and their offspring… so what happened was the world got two nations, Israel and Palestine, governed by two religions, Judaism and Islam, fighting over the same heritage, Jerusalem and being called God’s People… God would replace Abraham as the Father figure once it extends beyond Isaac and Ismael and the nations become the brothers… now, i said that it’s not valid as a direct comparison, so don’t think that i’m saying that God is this jealous father who just got out of jail and wants to collect on this inheritance… but it’s interesting (to me) to think of how the two “brothers” each have a piece of the truth that will grant them their heritage… but neither has the whole picture and even combined they don’t… there is the third son of Christianity that is the vital link for both of them… i don’t know… i guess it was just an interesting picture in my head… saddening that rather than working together to achieve the great reward ($280 million in the movie), the brothers and father decided to duke it out and selfishly try to get the reward only for themselves… which is the way of the world… anyway… that bounced around my head all night… i guess i tend to think on movies a bit too much…

speaking of last night’s thought patterns… my nightly devotional reading last night dealt with reconciliation… and that’s something i’m all for… but it was discussing how we as Christians are to be agents that encourage others to reconcile themselves to God and to others… and they ordered it that way… first we encourage others to be reconciled with God… then to others… personally, i see that as backwards… in fact, i don’t think you can be truly reconciled to God without being first reconciled to others… i mean, doesn’t it even say in the Bible that if you bring a sacrifice to the altar and while you’re there you remember that you have something between you someone else, you are to leave your sacrifice go and be reconciled with your neighbor and then come back and give your sacrifice (which is how they were reconciled to God)… i think it’s easier to tell people to reconcile themselves with God because you generally assume that God accepts your forgiveness… and since He’s wholly good, whatever is between you and God isn’t His fault… it can’t be… but with some other person… well, the tendancy is to believe that it’s their fault and that they need to reconcile themselves to you and not vice versa… well, here’s a few revelations… 1. It’s never God’s fault, 2. God doesn’t always accept your sacrifice/apology (ask Cain), and 3. you are no better than your neighbor, and you both need reconciliation…

i could go back to my talk about honor, because i do have more to say, but i think i’ve overstayed my welcome today…

peace… love… bdg…

general31 Aug 2004 09:21 am

Man, Cal Thomas cracks me up… last Friday he said this of the Rebuplican National Convention (and all campaigning)…

“..increasingly politicians portray themselves as ‘savior’ figures. Just once, I’d like to hear a politician say, ‘I can’t do much for your life, only you can. So stop turning to government and look to yourself and your family…”

Anyway, it’s apparently Tuesday… and it’s apparent that my coworkers are hip to the boss being away and they have yet to show up for work… oh well… less frustration for me… on a somewhat related note, that coworker that is planning a divorce that i had a conversation with a while ago… yeah… well it seems she’s… um… got something on the side… GAH… some people make it so difficult to love them…

today will be disjointed as we are lunching out to bid farewell to one of the few sane coworkers who has been called to active duty out of state for a year… so, i’ll be in and out today… and you may have to deal with my away message if you IM me… or something… well… let me go off to change the world with my words…

peace… love… bdg…

general30 Aug 2004 04:07 pm

so Dr. Dobson says in his book, Bringing Up Boys that the first job for a parent of a young boy is to keep their child alive for the first 10 years of their life… i chuckled when i read that, but this weekend during “nap” time when i heard the loud crash and began the sprint up the stairs it was somewhat of a relief to hear little boy screaming his head off… upon reaching his room in what i’m sure was world record time, i found him under the toppled dresser unit, the drawers and all of his clothes… judging by the positioning, my best guess is that he pulled out the bottom two drawers and climbed on up only to fall backwards… (this is apparently something i did several times as a young boy)… so despite the scare, little boy not only survived, but he didn’t even get a single scrape or bruise… phew…

anyway… let’s see… it’s monday… and yesterday was a communion sunday and it was extremely hot to be walking around in a full suit… but i survived… and today i came in to find out that my boss decided not to work this week… i found out via an email auto-respond message stating that he’d be out all week… grand… and i get in trouble for taking a day off and not telling him at least three different ways… so that was the start of a great day… then of course it got even better when my coworker decided to tell me a story that i told him last week… only this time it was his story and he made it up… i seriously had a hard time not telling him to shut the heck up… so i sat there and listened while he finished… then the conversation went as follows:

me – “yeah, i know, i told you that last week”…
he – “no i don’t think so, i distinctly remember coming up with this story myself”
me – “YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAAAAAAAAAAAAA….”
he – “um”
me – “GAAAAAAAAAAH! YAAAAAAAAARGH!… AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA”
he – “what’s wrong with you?”
me – “mmhmm”

anyway… oh i wrote a new review today… for my Canadian homeboy and his spiffy site… peep it at Renown… there are a handful of other items that will be demanding your peeping powers this week from what i can tell… so stick around… i don’t really know what else to say right now… so here’s an item that is sure to be a great topic starter…Jesus action figure… indeed… ten bucks extra gets you the creepy voiced version…

peace… love… bdg…

general27 Aug 2004 11:22 am

omnipotence would probably be pretty cool… but, yesterday was one of those days where, had i known the events before they happened… i probably would’ve stayed home altogether or something… not that i would’ve missed out on any spectacular experiences or anything… but my knowing and changing plans probably would’ve resulted in another outcome that i may or may not have liked as well… could’ve gone on forever… anyway… yesterday i ended up working late (first time i’ve worked significantly late in at least two months)… i took the time to completely focus on a project that has been in the side mirrors for quite a while… and i managed to pound out a pretty decent piece of code (if i say so myself)… all in a day’s work… (this also adds to the whole lack of challenges, creativity stifling, but that’s probably better suited for a different entry)… so i worked a bit late… about two hours to be precise and part of that was discussing this project with my boss and finding out that he had an entirely different set of requirements and design features that he had decided not to share previously… so that was a bit of a strained conversation… and so i was heading home late and that’s generally annoying since it infringes on my time with little boy and wife and just generally being home…

since i was so late, i decided to head home on a different route that i normally take… i figured the rush hours had passed for the most part and whenever that route is clear, it’s faster than my normal way… so i headed home and as i got off the main road and came towards a side road, (cue the mystery theater background music)… my right front tire exploded… now, for those of you that have been around a while, you probably remember that back in January i had my first experience changing a blown tire… so by now, it’s old hat… i found a place to pull off and navigated my crippled car to a clearing and proceeded to change my tire… thanks to kraM’s mocking me over the last time, i knew to pop the bolts off before i raised the jack and it went a lot faster… it was a bit of an ordeal to communicate my dilemma to my wife and plan the appropriate response… but we managed, and i got the car to Costco for a quick (about an hour) tire change just before they closed up shop for the night… so all in all, i got home around 9 after leaving at 7:15 in the morning… pretty long day… but it would’ve been worse if i had left at my normal time and gone my normal route… so… there you go… everything happens for a reason…

so this morning i have the pleasurable company of little boy here at work… which means that since he went to bed so late, i got to wake him up… so i opened his bedroom door and as i took down the gate, he woke up from his sleep and his eyes slowly opened until he saw me in the doorway… then he perked right up and shouted “Woo Hoo DADDY! YEAH!”, rolled over and climbed out of bed to run over and give me a hug… now THAT’s what i call blessed assurance… or at least that good fresh feeling in the morning…

alrighty… more some other time…

peace… love… bdg…

general26 Aug 2004 09:45 am

i just had the weirdest conversation… with a 3-day temp who decided that his loyatlies to our company are such that he wants to sit down with us (the developers) and figure out a good direction to move forward with our corporate plans… ambitious little bugger, huh?… well, i was polite and all, but it was quite strange indeed… and his ideas… man.. great stuff… he suggested that we use frontpage to maintain the hundred some thousand church websites we have… indeed… it was really hard not to laugh right out loud in his face… i guess i am maturing a bit though, because i don’t think i even snickered…

anyway… i did post a new review over at the TRu… finished that puppy up… (Rachael Lampa if you’re interested)… i also wrote a couple for a fellow amigo… and so, you may think i’m over this bout of writer’s block… but not really… i’m just doing what i do…

my headphones are still broken… they never seem to heal… and my ears are clogged and ringing and driving me crazy… so if you’ve been talking about me… knock it off… the whole terrorist thing from yesterday’s entry has given me the following phrase… “a criminal mind, commandeered by Christ”… i have a feeling that i’ll use that somewhere… someday… but for now, it’s just right here…

i saw a commercial spot for the upcoming Relient K and it’s downright hilarious… i’ll keep an eye out for it to be released… but you can also check the album site and sign up for news on the album i guess… honestly if you watch this commercial and don’t laugh… you really don’t have a good sense of humor… i think there’s more… but i have too much to do right now to sit here and try to think of them…

peace… love… bdg…

general25 Aug 2004 03:22 pm

“Who’s this you’re listening to?” “It’s a dj crate dig…” “Oh, right…cool”… pfft! he so doesn’t know what a crate dig is… dork…

ok so… this is what you missed yesterday by me not updating… it ’twas an eeire drive in yesterday morning… see, the night before i had woken up in the middle of the night as i often do.. (since i’m half-insomniac)… and my mind was all over the place… in fact it was so wacky, that i started thinking about various terror plots and ranking how effective they would be… and i came up with what i thought would be a doozie if it actually happened… pretty easy to execute and pretty high on the fear factor… (i know it’s kinda strange)… to clarify, it’s not that i’m a terrorist… but i have a mind that likes to figure things out… it’s kind of like a sinister chess game, where you try to predict your opponent’s next move, but of course the consequences are much greater when you’re wrong… (when the sniper was lurking in the greater DC area, i don’t think i slept more than a half hour a night)… so anyway… i came up with this plot that i thought would be effective i guess and then on my way into work, the news radio reported that a couple had been arrested and they had in their possesion information that would serve well as reconnaissance for the very mission i had conceived in the middle of the night… i never know if i should be pleased that i can guess these things, or just plain concerned that my worst thoughts are shared by villains that actually act on them…

so that was yesterday… that, work, and i did a little bit of writing… very little but some anyway… i have figured out why i’m beating my head against the wall so much when i try to write these days… it’s because i’m creatively stifled at work… or something… i guess maybe because i get so frustrated by work and my co-workers that i am numbed to any creative thought and energy… i don’t know… i’m working on it…

on a more personal note, my mother recently had a slight panic attack… she called and i had to tell her…

today, i’m finishing up a few reviews and other items… and i’m absolutely amazed at the clock right now… it’s already just about 3:30… GAH!… well… i’m sure there’s more to say… but perhaps another day…

peace… love… bdg…

general24 Aug 2004 02:32 pm

what? i could’ve sworn i posted in here already today… bah, no one reads on tuesdays anyway…

peace… love… bdg…

general23 Aug 2004 12:08 pm

breathe… stretch… shake…. let it go…

some news of interest to me… RockRebel.com posted a link to my Passion Songs Walk TRu out of the blue… nice traffic boost… also… my 12 Stones Walk TRu earned me the title of “moron” over at the 12 Stones message boards… note to self: if the fanboys don’t attack… you’re not being totally honest…

so… Ma$e is back… is it good?… pretty hot beats, tight flow, excellent production…. is it Christian?… Ma$e says he’s a Christian… but, there’s not much i see on the album that fits comfortably in the CCM-format… it’s pretty sad that they are so thirsty for quality hip hop that they are looking to bad boy records… instead of the numerous other options to get behind…

peace… love… bdg…

general20 Aug 2004 09:12 am

 

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peace… love… bdg…

general19 Aug 2004 04:10 pm

life isn’t a competition…. even if it was… i already won and you have to fight a fourteen-year old girl for second place…

peace… love… bdg…

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