September 2004


general29 Sep 2004 10:15 am

“Life is beautiful. Life is a struggle. Life is a beautiful struggle.” – Mos Def

*sighs*… well… i see that went over well… here’s a weird one… it was pouring rain all day and yet i was in a great mood… today the skies are clear and i find myself frustrated and irritable… several factors are at play here… one is that i hate feeling like i’m getting the run-around… and i feel like i’m getting that… see… i’ve been trying to get ahold of a CD for review… and there’s basically NO coverage anywhere for this CD… but from what i’ve heard of it, it’s certainly worth coverage… so i shoot an email to so and so… it bounces… i try a few other ways and finally get through… the reply i get includes a dubious name of someone that i’m “supposed” to contact to get set up… of course that email also bounces and la di da… it’s been like a 3 week process… annoying… this Seven Places eCard is pretty cool, but it’s ridiculous that you have to select the songs individually in order to hear all five… what else… oh, i haven’t gotten the new Mars ILL CD yet, and other people have… i know it’s kind of silly… but it’s still kind of frustrating to know that i’m not a *good* enough site… (although, it’s also good to know that i have room to grow)… hopefully this week… oh yeah and a CD that i need to start working on a review for is missing in action… it might be in my car, but i didn’t expect that since it’s always skipped a lot when i listen to it there… i should probably go check… but i have enough to do without that today… oh and Target didn’t have Brian Wilson’s new CD yesterday… i guess i’ll be waiting a while on that one… it’s a pretty cool CD and VH1 has been streaming it online if you wanna give it a listen… this new Jeremy Camp song is pretty nice… it’s based on the prodigal son… musically, it’s about the same as previous stuff from Camp, but it’s enjoyable… and i like this Talib Kweli CD so far… more curses than i’d like but it’s pretty solid as expected… now if only Mos Def would follow up “Black on Both Sides”… ah well… i should go conquer something… ATTACK!

ps. pfft. don’t pretend to be upset that i didn’t continue my thoughts from yesterday… i know better…

listening: 

LA Symphony – Baloney
Lojique – Process of Illumination
Talib Kweli – Beautiful Struggle
Seven Places – Hear Us Say Jesus (eCard)
Jeremy Camp – Take You Back (video single)
Mars ILL – Sunstep (single)
Mars ILL – Blue Collar Sessions EP

seeing: (clickable)

peace… love… bdg…

general28 Sep 2004 04:23 pm

boy, have i got a lot to say… let’s see what happens… first, a cheesy little life analogy that you would expect from a sunday school teacher with a bad combover… but it starts off with a cute story about little boy, so i’m sure you’ll read it despite it’s eye-rolling effect…

Sunday School Illustrations with Crazy Combover Guy (take One).

the other day, i went upstairs during little boy’s nap and i noticed that the light was on in his room… since he wasn’t exactly asleep yet… i ventured down the hall to see what had happened… see, he’s about a foot too short to reach the light switch, and i hadn’t turned the light on for him… so i get down to his room and see the switch is up and he’s smiling in the corner “reading” a book… i turned the light back off and told him to take his nap and left him to his room… when i got him after his nap, his light was on again… and i discovered his trick… i flipped the light back off and he immediately ran over to get a book… he proceeded to come over to the door, stand under the light switch, and slide the book up the wall until the big payoff… *click* Lights On… really clever for a two year old, if you ask me… and man, the smile on his face… he was so proud of himself… and being a proud daddy, i rewarded his ingenuity with a hug… of course, now he only gets small books during nap and bed time, (which he can still finagle to acheive his goal of enlightenment)… but still, i was impressed…

now, here’s the application… little boy wanted to shine his light… which is what we as Christians all need to do… but he is too short to hit the switch by his own efforts… he needed some assistance… as humans, we too all fall short of glorifying God and shining our light to the world around us… that is, without outside assistance… for little boy it was an innovative use of a book that daddy left for him in his room… now, i could say that for us, the book we need to use is the Bible, but that’s a poor correlation… because, the Bible will help us if we read it, learn it, and apply it… little boy’s book only helped him by sliding up the wall and extending his reach… so the lesson learned is that we need to use the gifts, tools, and abilities that God has left for us in our “room”… even if it means using something in a way we weren’t specifically taught to use it, an unconventional way… much like little boy used the book not just to read like he was taught, but in another effective way… if we stretch ourselves to serve God, the results will be enlightening…

there it is… what’d you think? cheesy?… sometimes i wonder why i see things the way i do… anyway…

okay… so more on little boy and his reaction to littler boy… they first met on Thursday evening when i brought little boy to the hospital for dinner with mommy and baby brother… and immediately upon spying littler boy, he blurts out “mommy baby!” and then starts begging to see him close up… during dinner, he decided to try to feed littler boy some french fries and water… to no avail of course… but it was a nice effort… then he insisted on “hugging” littler boy… so he got to hold him with mommy’s help for a while and he sat there on the bed with a huge smile on his face, leaning over to kiss littler boy a lot and shouting, “Ma Baby!” (“Ma” meaning “My”)… adorable really…

we went back the next day to pick up mommy and littler boy and bring them home… and he insisted on carrying in the car seat for “Ma Broder”… during the drive home i caught him staring at littler boy a lot and smiling… then since we’ve been home he tries to be as helpful as possible… running over when littler boy cries and patting his shoulder, saying “okay baby, okay”… he’s even gone so far as to offer a pacifier, blanket, and a little bear that plays music… if for some reason little boy can’t go over to console littler boy, he also has a remarkable impersonation of littler boy’s cry… it’s hilarious… but so far it’s looking like it’s going to work out well with the two of them…

anyway… i finished (minus the rejoinder) Brian D. McLaren’s section of The Church in Emerging Culture: Five Persectives and it’s loaded with some really interesting thoughts… some i’m inclined to believe… some i’d disagree with… but what was more interesting to me, is that i recently read an article by Mr. McLaren published in the Leadership Journal called It’s All About Who, Jesus?… and his views seem to have completely shifted… in the book he asserts that the Gospel message is constantly changing because of the accomplishments and state of affairs within the church and among people in general… in the article, he complains that worship and much of the church is far too focused on man’s accomplishments when the focus should be entirely on God and what He’s accomplished… not just for us, but His majesty and might… so, maybe in his rejoinder he’s come to this conclusion… or maybe these two viewpoints aren’t as conflicting as they seem to me… regardless, it does bring up a decent question to ponder… and for me, that question is: “what is my part of the Gospel?”… do my actions in fact “shape” the Gospel message at all, or do they have no affect on that message…

personally, i see the Gospel as a steady, unchanging message… (the “good news” that God loves us, and though we are sinful, He loves us enough to go to the greatest of lengths to redeem us and call us His own)… i don’t think my actions will change that message at all… however… my actions can only affect my personal outcome… how i respond to the Gospel message… if i’m presented with a million dollars, it’s worthless unless my response is correct… i must first accept the money, but even the accepting of it is worthless until i actually spend it… i think the Gospel is a lot like that… i know some people might shudder that i just said that the Gospel message can be worthless… but if you are presented the Gospel and you don’t accept it or accept it without spending it (maybe “putting it into practice” is a better way to phrase that) then what value does it hold?… so if it’s becoming more and more prevalent that the Gospel is offered and passed up, how can we counter that response… or at least, what should our response be to that… to better the acceptance rate so to speak… one thought (which it seems is suggested by Mr. McLaren in the book) is that we change the method and the message… the logic is found in a “times, they are a-changing” type of attitude… basically, the times are changing so we need to change too… but again, i don’t think the message needs to change…

let’s take that million dollars again… if i change the million dollars… then i’m offering something else… either more or less than a million dollars… i can’t change it and still offer the same product… it becomes either a new product or an improved product… and i’m sorry, but there’s no way to improve that message… i can change the way i present it… for example… offer a million dollars in a different currency (like 6 billion Canadian dollars or whatever the equivalent is)… or in different denomination (like all 100 dollar bills rather than all singles) to make it more appealing… but the million dollars itself… that remains the same…

well i’m not quite sure that the end of that had anything to do with the beginning… but it wasn’t my intention to answer the question… it still remains… “What part do we play in the Gospel message?”… anyone?…

i have far more to write… but i’m out of time… so let’s try to get some discussion about this question and perhaps later on i’ll have more time to crack into the other stuff…

sounds

Beatmart Recordings – Best of the Submissions
REM – Around the Sun
Macrosick – Demo Disc
Sixpence None the Richer – The Best of…
Queen Latifah – The Dana Owens Album
Brian Wilson – Smile
Joss Stone – Mind Body and Soul
Mars ILL – Backbreakanomics

sights:

peace… love… bdg…

general27 Sep 2004 04:50 pm

so… i’m back… kind of… we’ll see how long this lasts… obviously i’m quite busy trying to catch up and i’m running on low fuel… (something like 9 hours of sleep over the last four days)… it’s all good though… it’s been enough of a high that the downsides have little effect… anyway… here’s the cleaned up tale… the tale of a littler boy and his entry into the world…

i got “the call” around 10:30 which was pretty good timing as the meeting i was in was just about to take off… so i got to miss most of it as well as a meeting the following day… we dropped little boy off on the way to the hospital at a friend’s house and he got to play the day away with his buddy from church (as buddy as 2-year olds get)… and we went off to take care of business… we got to the hospital at noon and checked in… when the nurse finally came, i had to head back down and across the hospital to register… what the heck, right? we pre-registered and still i have to come down and register… so then i get to the desk and the lady refuses to look up… then i have to fill out a sticker, and sit and wait… after 20 minutes of waiting… i’m finally ushered into the back office where i sit across from this guy bent on being slow who insists that my job must be “plush” because of where i work… so anyway… it was 45 minutes before i was back up with my wife… i pity those that don’t pre-register… so then it was a while… pretty painful for her and tough for me to see her in pain… and at 6:09 PM, we met him… 9 lbs and 8 oz of littler boy… and i simply ran out of words… i could go into really some really nasty and personal details, but i’ll just let you know that giving birth is not exactly a fun spectator sport… but it’s probaby worse to participate in… anyway… i got to cut the cord… and everybody is fine… little boy has taken well to littler boy and i think it’s the beginning of a great friendship… more on that some other time… now i need to get back to them… God is beyond amazing… can i get a witness?

ps. new Moment of TRu went live today… sorry for the delay…

EDIT: go skins…

ears

Sufjan Stevens – Greetings From Michigan
Flynn Adam Atkins – Louder
Mutemath – Reset [EP]
Bebo Norman – Try
Talib Kweli – Quality
Jurassic 5 – Quality Control
U2 – Vertigo (Single)
Fernando Ortega – Fernando Ortega
Monk and Neagle – Monk and Neagle

eyes:

peace… love… bdg…

general23 Sep 2004 12:51 am

yep, ’tis true… more some other time…

peace… love… bdg…

general21 Sep 2004 04:42 pm

sorry… not too much to say today… today is the official due date for littler boy… so my thoughts are consumed… let’s see what i can muster up… well, i got a new coffee-maker the other day… one of the selling points was what they call a “perma-filter”… this is basically a little wire basket for the coffee grounds that i can use over and over again so i never have to use the paper filters… it’s billed as a convenience… but in reality, now i have to clean the silly thing out every morning… ANNOYING!… i guess i’ll get used to it…

i’m trying to decide if i want to stop by the store on the way home to get star wars… i think i do… and i should go…

ears

Mutemath – Reset (EP)
Nicole C Mullen – Everyday People
Veggietales – Sumo of the Opera
Dilbert The Complete Series Disc 3 (Episodes 14-21)

eyes:

 

peace… love… bdg…

general20 Sep 2004 12:25 pm

i think i used to hate mondays… i don’t know why exactly… i mean, think about it… sure, you have to go back to work/school/whatever after your weekend… but beyond that… monday is the beginning of a brand new day… a brand new week… it’s a brand new beginning… the opportunities are fresh… the chances are renewed… it’s not just back to this or that… it’s the start of… who knows?… no matter how irritating work was last week… or how overwhelming school seemed the week before… or how hectic life seemed the other day… today is a new day… and specifically the beginning of a new week… well… at least that’s the positive way of looking at it… but i’d bet a good number of spectacular accomplishments have found their start on a Monday… maybe mine will start tomorrow… i just don’t feel up to it today…

So the weekend was pretty good… we went out Saturday and picked up a police cruiser for little boy to speed up and down the sidewalks with… it’s technically from his grandparents (my side) for his birthday though, so the most enjoyment he’s gotten out of it so far was talking about the box during the cart ride through Toys-R-Us and the crowded car ride around town and back home afterwards (“My Car! My Car!”)… he’s gonna love it though… he just has to wait it out until littler boy joins us officially and “gramma” and “grampa” come down to officially give it to him… that’ll be fun…

so what else, Chick-Fli-A nuggets are the best on the planet… simply put… Sunday was a pretty good day… started off a bit shaky, with little boy screaming at his door early on in the morning… like… two hours before normal… i went to check on him since he had somewhat of a tummy ache Friday night, and i wanted to make sure that he didn’t have any recurrence of the symptoms… but he was fine, just lonely and perhaps a bit cold… so i gave him a warmer outfit, hung out with him for a bit, read a book, and went back to bed… he was a little distraught at first, but he settled back down and presumably played in his room for the next hour or so… then, off to church… or rather Sunday School this week… since we only get to choose from one service these days… see… little boy “graduated” to the two-year old class now… and unfortunately, there’s not enough teachers to cover the two-year olds for both the 9:30 and the 11:00 service… so he’s only got a place to be for one service… so far we’ve decided to split the Sunday’s between the normal service and our Sunday School class… it just seems ridiculous to me that a church with 1400 members can’t staff their Sunday School classes… here’s a word for you… if you go to a church regularly, find a way to serve there… don’t just be an attendee…

anyway… after church i watched a good deal of the Redskins’ game.. i gotta say though… the team really looks pathetic… i really and truly hope that Coach Gibbs is able to turn them around… but even last week when they won, they looked bad… this week… well for starters they had SEVEN TURNOVERS… what’s that about?… anyway… the Bills lost another close one… i’m convinced that they are only around for dramatic effect… they’re still my team… and they’ve taught me a lot about faith… (and dealing with letdowns)… but man… it’s almost a good thing that i don’t get to see all their games… and the NHL has got the game on lock… not that i watch much hockey on television… but i think it’s important for sports execs to take heed… this is what’s going to happen to the NBA, the MLB, and the NFL sooner or later if priorities don’t get straightened out…

oh, i have some deeper thoughts for you this time from the Old Testament even, but i have far too much to attend to today to really break into it… maybe i’ll tackle it a bit tonight or tomorrow… i hope to… but you know… it’s me… i can only do so much… off i go… look @ me dancing…

Listening:

Taylor Sorensen – The Overflow
Pigeon John – Is Dating Your Sister
Relient K Purevolume Songs
Kierra Kiki Sheard – I Owe You
Mars Ill – Blue Collar Sessions
Joey the Jerk – Average Joe
Bone Circus – The Locals: an EP

Seeing:

peace… love… bdg…

general17 Sep 2004 02:12 pm

so it’s another Friday and i’m busy at the keyboard… banging out this and that… hoping to have some results… at this point… it’s looking somewhat dismal… but you never can tell, can you?… anyway… i finished chapter seven yesterday and there were some really spectacular thoughts expressed in the last couple pages… again… it’s kind of right in line with things i’ve written or expressed over the last year or so… specifically, Tozer addresses the cries for unity within the church… and he states that unity will only be achieved when each individual member of the body takes accountability for his or her actions and sets themselves in right accord with God… and to the naysayers that insist that the change must come from corporate cooperation, he offers the following:

“Has it ever occurred to you that one hundred pianos all tune to the same fork are automatically tuned to each other?”

profound… it’s a concept i’ve been tossing around for a while now… and then i come across this eloquently articulated summation… crazy how things work…

in another “coincidence”… my Bibe reading yesterday fell on Matthew’s version of the passage in Luke that started the whole faith and worrying discussion this week… having read it again… i offer you another practical step for increasing your faith… it’s found in the familiar, and oft misused statement… “Seek ye first the kingdom of God, and all these things shall be added unto you“… moreso the first part, but the latter half of the statement is the promise that you’re supposed to believe in… but the first half… Seek ye first the Kingdom of God… remember, the first suggestion i made was to get to know God… because the more you know Him… the easier and more natural it is to trust in Him… to “have” faith or rather to “act on” faith… this suggestion then… is to seek the Kingdom of God (the eternal) rather than the kingdom of the earth (the temporal)… that is to say… focus on the eternal value found in the temporary… that’s a pretty hefty sentence and i don’t have time to address the full weight of it… but i challenge you to find the eternal value in the people that you interact with, rather than focusing on their temporal traits… (ie. we are all made in the image of God)… and i think with that mindset… your entire outlook will change…

anyway… speaking of change… here’s a change of pace for this entry… i watched Scooby Doo 2 last night… and it was more enjoyable than Jersey Girl was the night before… sure it was downright silly in some spots… but overall i think they did a really good job with the movie… and i passed a technological milestone this morning… my 100th adaware scan… hmmm, i see that my alotted time is up… so i’ll leave you with one final comment…

you’re really never too old to get excited about finding string cheese in your lunch… you may think you are… but you’re only lying to yourself…

Stuck it in my ear:

Mourning September – A Man Can Change His Stars
trailer for In the Face of Evil (InTheFaceOfEvil.com)
special features for – Scooby Doo 2 (DVD)
Sandi Patty – Hymns of Faith… Songs of Inspiration
A Ken Oak interview
Various Artists – Soul Cutz Vol. 1
Various Artists – Gloria
Deepspace 5 – The Night We Called it a Day

Stick it in your eye:




peace… love… bdg…

general16 Sep 2004 11:28 am

i wish i was a better man… i make too many promises… stretch myself over too many projects… fail too often… miss deadlines… don’t take enough seriously… i goof off… i dislike people who i should love… i don’t do what i say i will… i don’t do… much… ’tis true… but today is a new day… a new chance… a fresh face… a clean slate… and i slept fairly well last night… maybe… just maybe… today i will do better… today i will be better… maybe…

so we watched Jersey Girl last night… and, while it’s a pretty cute story overall… there was a lot of coarse moments which i guess are to be expected with Geroge Carlin in the cast… and… oh, i didn’t even know until just now that it was written and directed by Kevin Smith… yeah that makes a lot more sense now… anyway… it was interesting… i have no interest in seeing it again though…

i got to take a survey today for a Christian Bookstore… (the pay off was a coupon)… when i initially agreed to take it, i assumed it was simply about my impressions of their storefront, service, policies etc… but, once the survey loaded (and man, was it loaded), i quickly found it to be about the Purpose Driven Life and the gobs of marketing that surrounded that product… now, i know, i should really finish reading that book, and at this point, i should probably start over from scratch… but, i think i’ve made my views on the book abundantly clear… suffice to say… the survey went quite differently then i’m sure they expected… and i chuckled a few times too… in a similar manner as the sinister laugh i’ve taught little boy already…

so.. there’s certainly more to address where it comes to faith… (for example, the pages i read today brought up the point that faith is an “equal opportunity” quality… meaning anyone can have it, at any time, in any place)… and there’s a few things i’d love to pick up on from my first paragraph… but honestly, i need to get some things done… and i’ve been derailed enough this week, this month, this year… so, my focus is going elsewhere today… and if i seem like an online hermit to you today… that’s why…

on with the show…

CD’s and Such of the day thus far:

The Normals – Coming To Life
The Listener – That’s It (single from purevolume)
Cool Hand Luke – Fires of Life
U2 – The Joshua Tree
Mat Kearney – (three song clips from Chordant)
Othello (and the Hipknotics) – Organic (single)
Dave Brubeck Quartet – Time Out
Braille – Shades of Grey

Eye Candy:

peace… love… bdg…

general15 Sep 2004 03:34 pm

it’s raining.

i’m some kind of tired today… i can hardly even concentrate long enough to write a thing… the office is half empty… well, half of half empty… most of the bosses are away… some up at the headquarters… some off in Africa… yeah, Africa… but i’m still working… i’m kind of going through a dry spell… thoughts are hard to come by… and i haven’t gotten any good mail in almost two weeks… so i hit the ground today and sent out some necessary emails requesting new materials… of course… i also need to write about what i’ve got too… i’m just so tired… it’s difficult to string any number of words together these days… there’s much too much going on… i haven’t noticed much of a difference having installed SP2… so much hype… oh… right… i keep forgetting to mention… my Sintax.the.Terrific review for Renown Magazine… peep dAt, eh?

Anyway, as i’ve mentioned before… i’m reading through The Pursuit of God… and just yesterday i cracked into chapter 7 which brings up the topic of faith… funny… anyway… i’ll just add a couple thoughts to the previous two days of discussion… first, the better you get to know God… the more natural it will be to put your faith in Him… second, Tozer mentions that faith is a gift from God that we all have… which aligns pretty well with my previous statement that it’s more a matter of where we place our faith than if we have faith… and before i leave… i’ll include the thought that not only is faith found in action, it is faith that saves us… so draw your own conclusions… can you be saved and not change the way you act?…

i’m sure it would make more sense had i slept better…

CD’s and Such of the day thus far:

Pigeon John – Featuring Pigeon John
The Katinas – Destiny
Universal Royalty – Only If You Go With Me
Jars of Clay – 11 Live (DVD)
Dilbert The Complete Series Disc 2 (6 Episodes) DVD
Sintax.the.Terrific – Simple Moves

Eye Candy:


peace… love… bdg…

general14 Sep 2004 04:48 pm

so i want to expand a little on yesterday’s thoughtful section… but first… the big news… little boy got a bike for his birthday… yeah… we had a little party last night and he had a little fit about the other kids being interested in his new bike too… but we did alright… it was mostly a good time for all… a stark contrast, unfortunately to the rest of the day… mrs. me had a pretty rough go of things all day so i snuck out of work early and tried to help out where i could… so… let’s see… other interesting stuff… i won a gift card from some advertising contest i entered months ago… so that’s pretty cool… and i ended up spending about half of it on The Twilight Zone Collection 1 on DVD… it’s nine DVDs and 35 episodes and i’ve never seen it for less than $75… but Walmart had it listed for $49.88 and i wasn’t gonna pass that up… then when we checked out, it rang up for only $44.88 so that was even better… there’s still 4 more sets in the full collection… but i’ll be waiting for those to drop in price too… okay… so here’s some more thoughts…

faith is a difficult to define, nail down, recognize, and certainly quantify… so how does one know?… much less grow in faith… i don’t know that it ever really says in the Bible… the thing is, there’s no step-by-step guide to growing in faith… no twelve step program… no ruler on which to measure your progress… i’ll tell you why… guidelines exist in theory… faith exists in practicality… faith is not found in thought, but rather in action… it’s the stepping out of the boat… it’s the walking on water… it’s the movement… it doesn’t make sense and at the same time it makes more sense than the alternative…

it’s a strange thing, really… i have learned one thing though… we all have faith in something… for most of us though… our strongest faith is placed in things… our money, our job, our house… or people… our parents, our friends, our pastors… and that makes sense… because it’s what we know… it’s who we know… but they will all fail us… they are all temporal… so that’s another key… get to know God… focus on things that are eternal… and our faith shifts from this world to the next, where it belongs… on things and Him… He won’t ever fail us… and i’m not there yet either… i’m facing the right direction… but i’m not sure if i’m walking, or if i’m on my hands and knees crawling, or if i’m flat on my face from having fallen, or if i’m just standing there thinking about moving… but faith is found in action… so i need to move on it…

CD’s and Such of the day thus far:

Smokie Norful – Nothin’ Without You
Jars of Clay – Who We Are Instead
Big Boi (of Outkast) – Speakerboxxx
The Twilight Zone – Episode 47: The Night of the Meek DVD
Gavin DeGraw – Live Concert rip (1/18/2004) House of Blues, Chicago
Ian Eskelin – Save the Humans
Ma$e – Welcome Back
The Katinas – Roots
Chris Tomlin – Arriving
Fernando Ortega – Fernando Ortega
Pigeon John – Featuring Pigeon John

relatively relevant picture thingies:

 

peace… love… bdg…

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