i’ve decided that i have too many commitments… but since i’m already committed, i’ll commit to finishing until i’m committed…

this week’s Review Rundown…

CMCentral

  • Forever Changed – The Need to Feel Alive
  • Sonicflood – This Generation
  • Yellow Second – Altitude
  • John Davis – John Davis

    Renown Magazine

  • Benjiman – Activate

    the TRu

  • Mars Ill – Pro*Pain Morning Walk TRu
  • let’s get some randomness out of the way…

    from a random conversation…

    me: we talk about traffic a lot
    he: yeah, that’s part of lving in the DC area
    me: i guess. it’s like the common denominator that we all deal with
    he: besides, if we didn’t have bad traffic, what would we talk about?
    me:… gas prices? did you see it went up sixteen cents this weekend?
    he: (laughs) you kill me man…

    there’s not much that’s more annoying than eating soup with a fork… yeah crazy huh… but, looking around… there’s no spoons and i need to eat… oh, and more annoying than using a fork… soup that tastes horrible…

    why on earth would someone mount toilet paper so that it feeds from the bottom?… everyone in their right mind knows that the proper way for toilet paper to feed is from over the top… why do i have to deal with tp mounted upside down?

    so i’m a bit angry for reasons other than spoons and upside down paper goods as well… i finally ended up getting this software/cable package so that my cell phone and computer would talk to each other… and it doesn’t work… well… the program loads up just fine and i can mess with some of the stuff but none of the drivers work… NONSENSE!… i was messing around with it for far too long earlier today… i’m gonna try a few more things and then… it’s ON!…that company will meet mr. consumer complaint man….

    So i’ve been reading CS Lewis’s Abolition of Man and i just finished the first chapter finally… i read about a page and a half a day… this is some heavy stuff… but i love Lewis’s wit and bite… and i’m glad i recently brushed back up on deconstructionism and literary criticism… coming in pretty handy…

    and here’s something to think about…

    where i work, we employ temps and contractors… mind you, i’m not at all knocking either of these positions… i was a temp myself way back when i decided to up and change career paths entirely… it’s a good gig really… you get to go and work with different people… and you’re less affected by the fight for salary or whatever because you get paid by a different company… certainly you have to do a good job because there are two companies who can fire you, but even if the company you are working in terminates your contract, you still have a job with the temp agancy and they’ll simply send you out to a new job…

    anyway, i was caught slightly off guard the other day when one of our temps, in discussing the process of settling into our new office space, said… “we’re getting there”… normally that might not have even caught my attention… but for some reason, i started thinking to myself… “WE?”… and then i started wondering why on earth she would attach herself to our company as if she were a bonafide employee… she does receive some benefits from us such as community, lunches at times, and a feeling of accomplishment… her true benefits (health care, salary, etc.) don’t come from us at all, but rather the company that send her… and yet, she has an allegiance to us somehow, and perhaps somewhere in the back of her mind is the hope that she’ll join us officially and leave her employer behind…

    when i was a temp, i had the same thing running in the back of my head… i wanted to be wanted by the office i served in… i wanted to be hired on as a full-time employee… i didn’t want to be a temp any longer than necessary… it’s as if there’s a greater stability to being a full-time worker… and it didn’t really matter that technically i was a full-time employee for the temp agency… somehow i trusted more in the physical office that i commuted to more than the “virtual” office that actually maintained my record of employment and sent me a check every other week… as if somehow, i was less likely to lose my job if i was working for a company and not a temp agency (which is also a company)… all these thoughts and memories returned to me the other day, spurred on by one word… “we”… and then it hit me…

    i’m still a temp… not in my employment status, my work with the temp agency was short-lived, and i actually did get hired on by the office i was working in… but my point is… as a Christian, i’m a temp… i’m employed by God to accomplish His tasks here on earth… despite any rewards i receive here (money, notoriety, etc)… my true benefits, the important ones, the ones that will last, those come from God… and yet… i strive to impress my “co-workers” and earthly bosses more than i try to please God… as if i was hoping to be hired full time by this world… i’ve fallen too much in love with the rewards of my work here and distanced myself from the eternal rewards that await me… my allegiance to God has become clouded with my desire to be accepted by this assignment… and i’ve got to refocus and remember who i’m really working for…

    pierced…

    Jeff Anderson – Open My Eyes? Seamless?
    subseven – Free to Conquer
    Sev Statik – Slow Burn
    Third Day – Offerings II: All I Can Give
    Smokie Norful – I Need You Now

    piercing…

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    peace… love… bdg…