September 2005


general27 Sep 2005 01:23 pm

This is kind of a vulnerable entry i guess, but this morning i got completely lost on the way to work… not lost in a physical sense of the word, but i was entirely swept up in an attitude of worship… today is a pretty hectic day at work too so this was a very unexpected turn of events… the thing is, i was listening to the new David Crowder* Band album, A Collision (MusicChristian, FreshReleases, iTunes)…

i got this album on Friday and have listened to it several times, including yesterday morning when my officemate requested that i put on my headphones because, “this guy sucks”… anyway, whether it was my hardened exterior in front of others, or the fact that i was listening from a critical perspective – trying to decide if the album is actually as good as it claims to be – or some other contributing factor, the album hadn’t really led me into worship until this morning… well, actually it started last night on my way home from work when the song “Come Awake” kind of caught my ear… this morning it was a number of the songs, but it all culminated with “Wholly Yours“… to keep things short, i pretty much lost it… singing along at the top of my lungs and simply praising God in the midst of stop and go traffic and a long commute… i’ll be honest, there were chills, trembling and tears involved and i’m not generally one to let loose like that, but really, it’s okay…

i’ve since regained my composure, re-entered the workplace and gotten my nose back down on the grindstone of life and this project that i’ve been tasked with… and the numerous additional projects that thwart forward progress… i was even listening to Family Force 5 tracks to toughen myself back up… but the point is… well… i mean, think about what we have been given… just for a minute forget about everything else going on around you… i kind of see this as when Paul says “forgetting what is behind, I press on towards the goal”… if you even get a glimpse of it… man… that’s something worth getting lost in…

peace… love… bdg…

general22 Sep 2005 11:02 am

another day, another eight requests for work… I’M WORKING ALREADY THANKYOUVERYMUCH!…

anyway, i have to seriously laugh out loud… two reasons really, but the first… God is so stinking hilarious… in the midst of all this stress going on, i get an email to listen to the new Sara Groves single and enter to win… since i get these emails all the time, i went ahead and clicked over, let the song play and waited for my chance to enter… also, i assumed that it was an iPod mini that i was trying to win since that’s like the hip thing to give away these days… song plays, click to enter…

“Congratulations!
You’ve just won a limited edition Sara Groves Viewmaster and an Autographed “Add to the Beauty” CD! ”

a viewmaster! how funny is that?… i knew Sara liked me… well played God, well played….

i was also laughing out loud earlier, because i am fortunate enough to have a screener for the upcoming release from Veggietales… that’s right, Lord of the Beans… and it’s downright spectacular… several times i cracked up and got strange looks from those around me (i used headphones)… anyway… i highly recommend this one… they did a brilliant job with it… ok… on with the day…

ps.  Happy birthday to littler boy!!!! he turns one today!

sonic boom

CeCe Winans – Purified
Songs Inspired by Narnia
Josh Bates – Perfect Day
Ohmega Watts – The Find

don’t blink

[broken images]

peace… love… bdg…

general21 Sep 2005 01:45 pm

forcing myself to breath for a second… i’m not sure if i mentioned this or not, but my life has always been one that comes in rushes… the ebbs and flows are more like tidal waves and drought… anyway… this is one of the tidal wave times and even though i have this huge project that i’m working on, i keep getting barraged by other requests relentlessly, making it difficult to focus on and knock out the big project… i am more determined than ever to finish it though, because i know that once it’s done, no one will talk to me for a month or so… then i can work on my new book idea…

speaking of which, i happened to mention this idea to my dad… everytime we talk i wonder where i ever got the drive and vision to accomplish anything… make no mistake, he’s a great father and he’s an incredible man… the thing is… his glass is always half empty as they say… so, upon hearing my idea, he says… “oh, yeah, I know it seems like a good idea for a book and all but really, someone wrote that book already, with a different title”… (sigh)… yeah , i know… nothing new under the sun… but i’m still gonna write it… can’t deflate my motivation totally…

i’ve lost some weight… i don’t really remember when i started trying to… probably about two months ago or something like that… but anyway, i’ve lost approximately five pounds… which is really pretty cool because i haven’t done all that much in the effort to lose it… i mean, i have been eating a lot healthier, to the point where i get pretty nauseous after eating grease nowadays… but really i think the biggest contributing factor is that i’m lazy… see, there’s not many snacks around the house… we used to always have a bag of potato chips or something… but now if i want a snack i pretty much have to go to the kitchen figure out what i want and actually make it… the quickest snacks are almonds, Cheerios or baby carrots… again, not that i used to snack a lot, but now that i have to really think about what i want to snack on, i often just don’t snack, because it’s too much effort… so there you go, laziness is the new fad diet… (the trick is to remove all the one-step snacks)… thought i’d share that with you… off to more work… it looks like i’ll be late with my CMC reviews this week… i don’t really see when i’ll have a chance to write them… hopefully sometime soon…

ps: yes, those are the littles, my boys.  yes, they are the most beautiful in all the land.  no, you can’t have them…

sonic boom

CeCe Winans – Purified
Falling Up – Dawn Escapes
Josh Bates – Perfect Day
Ohmega Watts – The Find

don’t blink

[broken images] 

peace… love… bdg…

general16 Sep 2005 04:25 pm

one project done. the other, well. even though the network is back up, there are so many things preventing this from getting done… it’s not going to happen and i’m not sure what’s going to happen… yesterday and today have been examples of the most ridiculous lack of communication and availability that i can easily remember… i’m frustrated, angry, wired, and exhausted all in one…

i just (literally) dove on the floor and slid across the room on my belly chasing a stressball… why? well i’m the only one here and i can… and i’m a little crazy… i need to go home…

ears

Roper – Brace Yourself for the Mediocre
Project 86 – And the Rest Will Follow
LA Symphony – Disappear Here

eyes…

peace… love… bdg…

general15 Sep 2005 03:57 pm

deadlines = less than 24 hours…
network = down
of course…

new reviews are up though

CMCentral

  • Switchfoot – Nothing Is Sound
  • Reuben Morgan – World Through Your Eyes
  • Jontez – And So It Is
  • Rita Springer – I Have to Believe
  • ears

    Black Rebel Motorcycle Club – Howl
    Ohmega Watts – The Find
    LA Symphony – Disappear Here

    eyes…

    peace… love… bdg…

    general14 Sep 2005 11:59 am

    Office workers… ever feel like Dilbert is all too true?… my latest Dilbert-esque encounter…

    boss: I need you to code this search tool so that it works in the new system, you can use the current codebase and just tweak a few things. It should be easy.
    me: This codebase isn’t working.
    he: Sure it is.
    me: Well, everytime i search i get an error.
    he: That’s just a communication error.
    me: an error is an error…
    he: no, the code works fine, there’s just a communication error.
    me: the whole basis of the code is to communicate with this other server, if it doesn’t communicate…
    he: are you saying you need more time?
    me: the code is broken.
    he: it works just fine.

    sigh… so this is what i do for a living… clean up and move on… burn it all down and walk away… sometimes it’s just not that easy… anyway… i’m under a pile of to do lists possibly for the rest of the week… i think that the birthday went well yesterday… as much as i know about that… Gilmore Girls was kind of sad… i have a feeling that Logan is going to try to push Rory back to Yale and that’s going to cause a rift in that relationship… that’s my guess at a spoiler… it did seem like he something on his mind at the bar though…

    what else?… i watched the British version of “The Office” the other day… season one from start to finish… (it’s only six half hour episodes)… a couple times i laughed out loud, but more than a couple times i was stunned by the brash sexual humour of the Brits… oh well, i’ll probably queue up season 2 in Netflix soon enough… (as Cookbook says: “Netflix is the BOMB!”)… also watched Sahara the other day and enjoyed it quite a bit… i think Steve Zahn is a really funny actor and i’d say that he’s underrated except that i think he only plays one character in everything so he hasn’t really proven himself outside of that stock role… Caught up on Prison Break and i don’t know how long they expect to drag it out, but that one actor (the younger brother) is very good at playing his character… and i think his cell mate was one of the street racers in 2 Fast 2 Furious… (yes, i’ve watched it several times)… I’ve also been watching Wildfire and Beautiful People on ABC Family, but i can’t say too many nice things about either show… though, it’s been interesting playing name that tune with all the CCM songs thrown in the background… oh, and one show i was somewhat surprised by… Hogan Knows Best… yea… the Hulkster is and always will be a good entertainer… it’s a pretty funny show overall, much more interesting than i expected…

    Looking forward to this fall season, i think it’s safe to say that there’s not much i’m looking forward too… i’m sure i’ll get stuck watching the tenth season of 7th Heaven if my wife has anything to do with it… and i’m sure every week, i’ll ponder why in the world this show is still running… Just Legal looks moderately interesting, but Don Johnson is pretty annoying to me… Tuesdays at eight is somewhat of a logjam with Gilmore Girls up against Acc. to Jim/Rodney and the new semi-appealing Bones… i think GG is a shoe in at this point… Close to Home also looks like it might work at ten, but SVU will likely reign… Wednesdays – i know i’m supposed to be enthralled with a second season of Lost, but i still haven’t watched the first season and i’m pretty okay with that… it may end up being a netflix rental for me to catch up on, but much like 24 (sorry) i just never got hooked and don’t expect to any time soon… opposite of Lost is a string of new shows that may or may not work… i think Criminal Minds or Head Cases have the best shot at gaining my attention but it may end up that Wednesday is movie night… since ALIAS has moved to… Thursdays…. GAH… see i love Alias and i really like Joey… Alias is likely to win out here at eight, but, man… i need to figure out a way to record Joey or something… must find friend close by… Everwood will probably make my screen at nine, though, i got pretty darn sick of the whole lot of them whining about EVERYTHING… jeepers… i’d love to be rich and living in Colorado… and this might be the year that i start watching Without a Trace more regularly… it has made some subtle inroads with me in the last few months… Fridays will be Supernanny… not that i have too many troubles with parenting, but it’s comforting to see people who are just plain terrible at it… lol… i know, i’m mean, but the accent is cool too… the other notable entry of the night is Numb3rs returning for another season… that’s a pretty cool show in my book, even though i don’t watch it much… the weekends bring football and Law and Order: Criminal Intent… phew… that’s a lot of television… keep in mind that i probably won’t end up watching even half of these shows… but right now, i’m like a kid in a toystore… or little boy in the Toy Story section of the Disney Store…

    i’m reading the following books: Walk On: The Spiritual Journey of U2 (Steve Stockman) (page 89/243), All The Hits So Far So Don’t Expect Too Much (Bradley Hathaway) (page ~75/~100), The Late Great Planet Earth (Hal Lindsey) (page ~35/~125) and Through Painted Deserts: Light, God and Beauty on the Open Road (Donald Miller) (page 4/253)…

    i think that’s it… and now i need to go fix the unbroken code so that i can use it as a basis for the new code i have yet to write… lots of fun… oh and if you happened to read the HM thing and had comments good or bad, please feel free to write the editor and let him know…

    ears

    Black Rebel Motorcycle Club – Howl
    Switchfoot – Nothing Is Sound
    Rita Springer – I Have to Believe
    Reuben Morgan – World Through Your Eyes
    Jontez – And So It Is…

    eyes…

     [broken image]

    peace… love… bdg…

    general09 Sep 2005 03:23 pm

    first… the randomness… eight new reviews at CMCentral this week… that’s right, EIGHT… well, you see what happened was that there was a technical glitch going on that refused any updates for a week or so… and because of that the four reviews from the week of the 23rd (which i apparently never linked) weren’t added until the 31st maybe… so i took the week off put my efforts towards crafting my article for the Nov/Dec issue of HM magazine and well, since there were plenty of releases to talk about, here are the reviews for the 30th and for the 6th… (well, and the 23rd since i neglected to list them previously)…

    CMCentral

  • Andrew Peterson – The Far Country
  • Yolanda Adams – Day By Day
  • Casting Crowns – Lifesong
  • Lightheaded – Wrong Way
  • Audio Adrenaline – Until My Heart Caves In
  • TobyMac – Renovating Diverse City
  • Monday Morning – Fool’s Paradise
  • Othello – Elevator Music
  • Chris Rice – Amusing
  • Robbie Seay Band – Better Days
  • Selah – Greatest Hymns
  • Stryper – Reborn
  • That’s a lot of reviews… and crazily enough, i did write two more this week that haven’t made their way online yet… oh well… in due time…

    so i work for a Christian organization… that’s my full-time job… i’m at work every day for about 8 hours and, since i’m in front of a computer, it’s where i often listen to music… i mean i have a lot of music to listen to and it’s difficult to do when i’m chasing the littles around or doing whatever around the house… so my big listening areas are work and in the car (where i spend about 2 hours a day commuting 17 miles each way)… anyway, i have a lot of CDs here at work, lots of new ones and lots of CDs i just never took back home… and while my coworkers claim to be Christians as well, and i’m not saying any different… here’s the thing…

    twice this past week and several times in the past, i’ve been asked by my Christian co-workers to burn them an illegal copy of a pre-release CD or a CD that i’ve received for reviewing purposes… besides defying the law and breaking a trust i’ve spent about five years trying to establish with publicists and record labels, this action would certainly blur, if not cross a line of morality that i’m not willing to cross… so, i calmly say no, and then i get a number of excuses, pleadings what have you… “it’s not illegal if they don’t know about it” or “can i just *borrow* the album then” (knowing full well that the intention is for them to copy it on their own)… now again, these are my Christian co-workers… and as i continue to deny them their requests, i’m subjected to guilt trips and name calling… and i’m just sitting here shaking my head right now as i think about it… i knew the world wouldn’t accept my belief system, but my own siblings in Christ? too much…

    So then i come across the results of a recent Barna Research Group study… as it turns out, only 54% of all adults base their moral decisions on the principles or standards they believe in… the study goes on to say that… “Other common means of making moral choices include doing what feels right or comfortable (24%), doing whatever makes the most people happy or causes the least conflict (9%), and pursuing whatever produces the most positive outcomes for the person (7%)…” another baffling result… only 60% of EVANGELICALS use principles from the Bible to determine their morality… again, i’m not going to make a blanket statement here, even though it may sound that way, but how are you a Christian if you don’t live what you believe?… NONSENSE…

    anyway… it’s birthday rush… little boy and my wife share next Tuesday as a birthday and littler boy follows 9 days later… the party tomorrow for little boy’s 3rd birthday looks to have about twenty-five people on the attendance roster (adults and children)… it’s gonig to be…. crazy i think… littler boy is only turning one and we have a small dinner planned with another couple in the neighborhood who have an eight month old…

    also this weekend, my wife and i start teaching Sunday School to a gaggle of three-year olds including little boy… WOW!… yeah, speaking of crazy… but you know, somebody has to step up and serve in the church… my goodness… 1500 in attendance every week and we can’t get 75 of them to work with a Sunday School class? get over yourselves people…

    anyway, i wanted to talk about Kanye West and how idiotic his worldview is and how i’m glad that i didn’t buy either of his albums… and how i’m entirely sick of all the blame that President Bush is getting… and how i’m tired of hearing everybody call him names and accuse him of things that make no logical sense… how i can’t stand the way the media has managed to shape the public opinion to think this way… how state and city governments need to step up and take responsibility or cease to exist… and how the lack of respect for the federal government and members of the administration, all the way up to W reflects some of the larger issues we have in seeking God and being true Christians… all these things… but i’m out of time, and i need to go shopping for birthday presents…

    have a great weekend everyone, i’ll be back next week hopefully in one piece… also next time, books, movies and television shows that i’ve been watching and enjoying or not so much enjoying…

    ears

    Black Rebel Motorcycle Club – Howl
    Listener and EQ – Ozark Empire
    Kevin Max – The Imposter
    LA Symphony – Disappear Here
    Lightheaded – Wrong Way

    eyes…

    [broken image]

    peace… love… bdg…

    general08 Sep 2005 10:33 am

    i have another big entry brewing but i’m in the middle of a lot right now… just wanted to stop by, say hi and tell you that if you use iTunes, you can now attain the Less Than Zero EP from LA Symphony right now… ah, it’s so good to see that… now go listen to it…i’ll be back later and you’ll be quizzed on it…

    peace… love… bdg…

    general02 Sep 2005 02:24 pm

    plenty of things i should be doing or writing or whatever… in fact… well anyway… i’m here, you’re here, so here we go… before i get into the bigger section of this entry which is centered around the hurricane, here’s a few random thoughts picking at my head…

    first up… the durango, affectionately known by little boy as “Red Rover,” is officially dry-docked… we unwisely didn’t refuel when we got back from our trip on Tuesday when we could’ve gotten gas for about $2.55 a gallon and well, you snooze you lose and now gas is something like $3.25/gallon and still rising… yeah, it went up sixty cents just yesterday… not cool…. and while i was “fortunate” enough to get gas yesterday for the grand am at a mere $3.05/gallon… we’re conserving the best we can… don’t anyone tell me that we’re not interdependent as a society… okay later…

    speaking of gas prices… i’m simply not buying the justification of these soaring prices… you can easily point to stories of looting and riotous behaviour down in the midst of this tragedy as unethical or immoral, but i think this price gouging is just as despicable… supply and demand is one thing, but this is simply opportunistic jacking up of the proce of the same gas that they were selling a day before for less… anyway… in another turn of events, i’ve discovered that gas price spotting is a hobby of the old office mate… keeps a little notebook pad and everything… i never cease to be amazed… moving on…

    yes i’m very excited about having my article printed in the new issue of HM Magazine… yep, i posted the cover picture yesterday, but didn’t totally explain… it’s so cool and strange to see the issue, crack it open and see my article right there in full color… anyway, if you are so inclined, head to your nearest Christian Bookstore, B&N, or Borders and pick up the latest issue to see how we ushered in the Return of Hip Hop… if you wanna check to see if your local stores carry the mag, first check the Where to Buy page… going forward, i am currently, when i’m not writing right here, finishing up a feature for the November/December issue on the mighty mighty LA Symph Crew… it’s exciting though, it’s technically due today and i’m way behind and not doing much to resolve that… anyway… good times… one more step forward…

    as a fan and participant of Fantasy Football leagues i was floored with laughter when i saw this spoof, courtesy of Lark News… they have such a knack for stories and such that make you laugh and also groan at the reality behind it…

    i ordered two more Donald Miller books just yesterday and i’m looking forward to them… if you remember, i recently read Blue Like Jazz in record time and i expect that i will be equally distracted by A Circus of Redemption (a.k.a. Searching For God Knows What): Reflections on the Gospel of Jesus and Through Painted Deserts: Finding God on the Open Road… i can’t remember when i was more excited about the writings of an author… it’s kind of scary… anyway…

    speaking of reading… i’m still plodding along through Walk On: The Spiritual Journey of U2 and i’ve also delved into the musings of Bradley Hathaway and his really spiffy book and CD set called, All the Hits So Far: Don’t Expect Much… this guy is really quite cool… i’ve only managed to carve out enough time to read through about half of the book but it’s really good stuff… he performs his poetry on the road in front of bands like Blindside and such, which is pretty cool and in the book, he actually explains some of the thoughts behind the poems… (i think that’s against the rules of poetry, but it’s really okay)…

    speaking of poetry… and i should probably wrap things up after this… but i used to be known for having a knack at writing poetry… i think i’ve mentioned before that one of my disappointments is that i haven’t written poetry in a few years… whether it’s lack of inspiration (which really seems impractical given the beauty of the littles among other things)… whether it’s lack of focus or whether it’s simply run its course through me and left me as a tragic epic… whatever it is, it’s not been with me for quite some time… regardless… i’m taking things into my own hands… partially inspired by Bradley’s book, but not really since i began these projects before i knew of him plus i don’t really want to tour, though i do fancy the idea of going to Europe… anyway… i have two poetry projects in the works right now since i needed something else to take up some of my time… no details to share at this point though so you’ll have to be curious…

    and now that that’s gone on for so long… you probably are sick of reading me… so i’ll try to be as succinct as possible and i’m thinking that i’ll even succomb to the trend of bolding and go back through the previous paragraphs… anyway, here it is… my five step guide to recovering from Katrina

  • Step One: restore order: if the chaos that exists there right now – 250k people wandering around lawlessly trying to survive amidst their anger and frustration – continues to exist much longer, it’s only going to get worse. How do we restore order? two words: Martial Law. Drop in a force of National Guard troops and let them do what they’ve been trained to do.
  • Step Two: clear the area: seriously, debris, water and people as best as possible… my inclination would be to find shelters and or facilities as close as possible and get all the people settled somewhere temporarily so that they can be nourished and restored to some semblance of normal status. I think it would be great if hotels in the greater area that are still capable of hosting visitors would open their doors and donate room space for some of these people. Obviously, a large number of people would end up in shelters and such, but that would be a nice touch for families or so that have young children who need four walls of their own. Also, this relocation would allow for us, the not-immediately-affected, to better meet the needs of the residents donating clothing, water, etc to a controlled environment. The area then needs to be swept and evaluated as far as what can be salvaged and what can’t. As best as possible, the Nat. Guard should clear out any threatening debris and prepare the area for restoration. (much like cleaning out a wound before applying medication).
  • step three. clean the area building off of the previous step, this is a more thorough cleaning of the area, getting ready for rebuilding. Residents should be involved in this process as they are able, as well as volunteers from organizations and other areas.
  • step four: rebuild i picture something like Extreme Makeover: Hurricane Edition. Where all the money designated for this relief effort goes towards quickly and safely restoring the community… I kind of feel like all the US chapters of Habitat for Humanity should temporarily relocate down to the area and help get things moving… corporate sponsers can donate appliances and other living essentials while the infrastructure is rebuilt by contractors… if we can get past the greed that you see in people looting for electronics and such during this tragedy, we start to realize that here in America we have an abundance of “stuff” and here’s a chance to actually put it to good use…
  • step five: restoration as the cities and surrounding areas begin to conduct business again, they should feel compelled to give back to the agencies and volunteers that came to their aid. I’m not saying that’s why people are helping (for a reward), but it’s going to be a big strain (financially and otherwise) on anyone who commits to see this project through. The community should reach back out these helpers and extend their grattitude in a real and material way. This is the fundamental basis of community and society. It’s not just gimme gimme gimme, it should be give and take.

    I realize that much of this is based on lofty expectations and ideals that, given the reports from the frontlines, obviously don’t exist in all people of this nation. I also realize that this plan only addresses the superficial problems that exists right now. But we must act in love and we must meet these physical, visible needs before we will ever be able to go beneath the surface. And now i realize that i’m out of time… have a good weekend. pray and consider helping somewhere, somehow…

    ears

    Kevin Max – The Imposter
    LA Symphony – Disappear Here
    Locke and the Chris Wilson Five – Loose Ties
    Michael BublĂ© – It’s Time
    Yolanda Adams – Day by Day

    eyes…

    peace… love… bdg…

  • general01 Sep 2005 10:34 am

    not dead. not lost. not hiding.

    under the gun. overloaded. leaving. later.

    ears

    Monday Morning – Fool’s Paradise
    TobyMac – Renovating Diverse City
    Audio Adrenaline – Until My Heart Caves In
    Othello – Elevator Music
    Yolanda Adams – Day by Day
    Andrew Peterson – The Far Country
    Lightheaded – Wrong Way

    eyes…

      <– bdg inside!

    peace… love… bdg…