PICKING UP THE PIECES

in “parting shots” i mentioned a few things that i’ll elaborate on a little bit… yes, i really am going to Disney World… we’ve rented a house down in Orlando and we’ll be staying there for a week with my brother’s family and our parents… it’s gonna be a full house and a family reality show all in one… one of the coolest blessings about this whole trip though is that i decided to talk to one of my press contacts about the trip and wound up getting free passes for my family at the parks… that’s some sweet perk…

also, i do like nutty bars a lot, i just now realized that i’m out of them, and i do want more… perhaps there was a tongue-in-cheek jab mixed in there as well, but feel free to take it at face value… i’ll put them on my amazon wishlist…

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY??

at the end of this month, i’ll have completed a year’s tour of duty over at CMC… if i continue beyond that, i’ll be the longest lasting editor there since Robin who lasted (as far as i can tell) about 3 years… and quite honestly, i’m not sure that i want to take the endurance title… in fact, what i’ve learned most and clearest are the reasons why Robin left, and Janke, and Gerg… well, Gerg’s just plain indecisive – he might’ve just seen a pretty butterfly and forgotten about the site altogether…

Anyways, since watching the Super Bowl, i’ve realized that i should be doing more than just “surviving” the job, right?… man those are good commercials… they even inspired me to look for new jobs and i’m pondering the opportunity of applying at USA Today… i’d rather work for a real newspaper, but we’ll see…

FUMBLE!!!!!

Yeah, that was a great Super Bowl, was it not?… sure, some of you may have been rooting for the Bears, but man, it was a good game from start to finish in my book… and it was great to see Peyton and Dungy get their hands on the trophy…

i have to ask though, am i the only one who sees the big hype about Dungy being the first black coach to win the Super Bowl as making it seem as though his race was something he had to overcome to win?… every time i heard it mentioned in the media, it felt like a back-handed compliment… kind of like when growing up a guy would tell a girl that she’s pretty cool and then add “for a girl” to verify that she still wasn’t as cool as she would be if she were a boy… it felt like the media was repeating endlessly how Dungy had done a great job coaching “for a black man”… it really irritated me…

being the first black coach in the NFL is certainly a milestone since it meant overcoming the racism of the league, but being the first black coach to win the Super Bowl… well, it wasn’t racism that prevented him from winning, was it?… am i missing something?… anyway… i appreciated the several mentions of faith from both Dungy and Lovie Smith… that was very classy and tastefully approached… for the most part…

HANGING BY A MOMENT

and now for the serious part of the blog… i stuck it down here a bit to weed out the skimmers and the surface friends… now that we’re down to people who actually care enough to read everything… here’s the rub… i’m in a slump, a funk, a something… i’m just not all there… i feel fried… i sit down and look at these keys… and look at this laptop screen… and look… and look… and it all blurs as i zone out and find out later how much time has excaped… i have so much to do that i choose to do nothing and it only gets worse… i’m behind on reviews… i’m behind on interviews… i’m behind on features… i’m behind on an article… i’m behind on my day job… and if i keep this up, i’ll soon be behind on bills…

i don’t really know what i’m asking for, or if i’m asking for anything at all… i’m not sure why i’m even writing this other than that i hope by venting a little bit, it’ll stir the pot and grant me a new charge or something… i’ve got a ton of work to do for my day job and i don’t believe that any of it is worth investing time into… i’ve got a ton of things to write up for theTRu, but i feel guilty putting any time into that when i know how far behind i am with writing that pays… i need to get back on track… i need to focus… i need to… i don’t know… “the thrill of proving the world wrong is gone, you should move on”… (i’m listening to John Reuben and that’s what he says on the matter apparently)…

i spoke on the phone the other day with Phil Vischer… yeah that Phil Vischer… the one who started VeggieTales… in the middle of the conversation he shot me through the heart when he said, “if you’re not happy doing nothing for God, then you won’t be happy doing anything for God.” (or something like that)… and i’m just sitting here thinking about that… i’d be happy to do nothing for God, but i want to do something… i want to be something… i want to stop watching the clock whiz by, stop wasting time and make it mine… i don’t think what i want is necessarily where i’m looking and i’m starting to doubt that being there will lead me to any more doors… i used to believe that firmly and now i’m not so sure… never mind, i’m probably just going crazy…

LOST TIME

er, Mittelos Bioscience… yeah, Lost was back last night and that was cool… i also enjoyed this week’s episode of Gilmore Girls, but it’s also pretty frustrating watching that dang triangle continue to twist and turn… Logan = good, Luke = good, Christopher = bad… i told you this LAST season… get with it Loralei Gilmore… Prison Break only recorded a whopping eight minutes for me… i don’t know what my DVR was thinking, but i’m not happy with it… still more to watch to catch up with the week’s distractions…

FROM THE MIXED UP CHAT LOGS OF…

BuddyName: This CD is Hot
barrYdakotAgambiT:That’s probably just because of global warming…

NEAR MISSES AND/OR COMING SOON

details about “the book”?… memoirs of a burnt out journalist?… abortion… oh, Salem bought Christian Music Planet and why that’s a major bummer for me…

spinning like plates:

John Reuben – Word of Mouth
Listener – Talk Music
Mute Math – Mute Math
Echoing Angels – You Alone
Future of Forestry – Twilight
Derek Webb – One Zero [aoustic] & [remix]
Various Artists – Songs from Amazing Grace, Songs from the Voice (Vol. 1 & 2), X Worship 2007
Brandon Heath – Don’t Get Comfortable

blurring in the sights…

peace… love… bdg…