seriously? it’s Thursday? it’s been some week… it’s been kind of rough mustering up the energy to keep things rolling… energy, motivation, i don’t know… anyway…

Here i am, working the blog while my mind is wandering around thinking of all the other things i could be, should be, or would like to be doing… in the background is last night’s debate courtesy of YouDecide2008’s YouTube account… what a great backdrop for the debate… does anyone know if you’re allowed to walk through the airplane if you visit the Reagan Library? i’d suspect that’s probably not the case, but that would be pretty sweet… anyway, it’s about time they start cracking down on Romney’s “fees” vs. “taxes” nonsense, but i’m not too happy about… well, i guess i’ll just dive in with that…

DING DING DING (IN THIS CORNER)

i’m pretty unhappy that this has clearly, in the media’s eyes, become a two-horse race… while Huckabee was introduced first and managed to get the face time and company of former First Lady Nancy Reagan, he quickly got pushed off to the far left of the table and ignored for most of the debate which is a HUGE step back, reminiscent of some of the earlier debates where he got maybe three questions – one about the Bible, one about evolution and maybe one about policy… it’s pretty disturbing, though, perhaps the writing is on the wall…

with a lack of funds and a lack of coverage, i suppose it is entirely possible that the Huckabee run for the presidency is on its last legs… some are actually speculating that he’s only staying in the race to take away some of Romney’s votes, clearing the way for McCain to storm through and win the nomination… actually, i’m okay with that if it’s true… i’m still hoping that Huckabee can pull it out and have a strong showing, but my second choice from the Republicans has always been McCain… McCain’s strengths are in foreign policy and military, both of which are extremely important at this point in history and i don’t honestly believe that any candidate will enact any significant economical policies that will be in the best interest of everyone…

Regardless, the debate zeroed into the feud between McCain and Romney with each other… Romney whining that the bees are chasing him after he smacked the crap out of the hive and McCain, calmly chuckling to himself and standing by his statements… other than that, nothing was really said that hadn’t been said several times over and based on the two of them, the debate was entirely unnecessary…

Ron Paul chimed in a few times telling them to stop bickering about he said/she said arguments, plugging the importance of, surprise, improving the economy and his apparent desire to pull all the American troops everywhere in the world back to the homefront… i’m starting to think that Ron Paul would like to build a giant dome over America shutting us off from the rest of the world entirely – so long as we don’t borrow money from China to build the dome, of course… Actually, a side note about Ron Paul… i saw that Ralph Nader was looking to make a run at president again and immediately thought of a Nader/Paul ticket…

And then there was Huckabee… sitting in the corner, unfairly marginalized while the apparent top two traded insignificant blows… he complained a few times about not getting any questions, but responded rather eloquently to the ones he did get… his answers even had the other candidates listening and nodding in agreement at times… McCain had expressions that said, “Why didn’t I think of that?” while Romney’s said, “I need to put together some more smear ads”… i think they both thought twice about Huckabee again and America should’ve, too…

The last question was about Ronald Reagan and it summed up the entire debate…

Cooper: Would Ronald Reagan endorse you as president and why?

Romney: Ronald Reagan? Of Course! Ronald Reagan would. Ronald Reagan agrees with me. Ronald Reagan, Ronald Reagan. Besides, McCain’s too liberal and I have my lips firmly attached to the seat of Ronald Reagan’s pants… this is the house that Ronald Reagan built! Ronald Reagan Ronald Reagan Ronald Reagan Ronald Reagan Ronald Reagan Ronald Reagan…

McCain: Ronald Reagan likes me. I was Ronald Reagan’s footsoldier! We defeated the Cobra Kai together! Besides, Romney is such a weak, flip-flopper that it’s laughable. Ronald Reagan would never endorse that guy! He’s got no spine! Ronald Reagan had a spine. I have a spine. I might actually BE Ronald Reagan by the end of this election cycle. Ronald Reagan Ronald Reagan Ronald Reagan Ronald Reagan…

Paul: What did you say? Oh right. I don’t know but Ronald Reagan campaigned for me in the 70s and he told me personally to mind the economy. ECONOMY!

Huckabee (for the win): It would be presumptuous to answer that. I can’t say that Ronald Reagan would endorse me, but I wish that he would. Ronald Reagan was a great president, not because of his policies, but because he believed in this country and he rallied the great people of this nation to believe in America again. If we can recapture that, that’s when we can recapture the Reagan spirit and only then can we bring this divided nation back together again.

Cooper: Thank you gentlemen and with three votes, Ron Paul, we believe you to be the mole, you are dismissed from the race.

AND NOW A WORD FROM OUR SPONSOR (BUT, WE DON’T HAVE ONE)

So, i’ve got a lot more to say about politics and the State of the Union Address that was earlier this week and more in general, but i think that’s enough for today… right now, i’m stepping back and opening up and being a little vulnerable… i mentioned in a previous blog entry how one of my dreams have died this year… and it seems that i’m in that season of life again where everything that has to do with my writing “career” is falling apart…

i booked my flight and room for GMA Week this year, sent in my registration papers and, looking at the numbers, i’ve come to realize that it may have to be my last GMA Week… it’s just getting harder and harder to justify the expenses of pursuing this when it’s increasingly becoming a drain on my finances… i used to make some money doing this writing thing… i used to be something of a journalist… when i was with CMC, i was doing alright and despite the increasing demand on my time, there was enough compensation to make it pretty much worth my time… (the stress and aggravation wasn’t really worth any amount of money, however)… and with HM and more recently with CCM, it was worth it, not for the pay necessarily, but for the enjoyment of it writing and the excitement of seeing my name in print and “accomplishing” something…

Now, CCM is done in print… HM is uncertain about keeping hip-hop in their coverage (which is fine, if that’s the decision that needs to be made)… and even the slight inroads i made into the Salem world during the aftermath of CMC’s upheaval seem to have been crushed with the recent reorganization over there… i just don’t know which end is up really…

Part of me would love to keep fighting the good fight and try to push theTRu over the top, shaping it into a mainstream force, but i realize that it’s a goal i may never reach… despite the increased traffic as of late, i’m still nowhere near a place where i’ve been advised is viable to solicit advertisers… and it seems by the difficulty i have booking interviews and getting connected with publicists, that i don’t quite carry much weight…

i don’t want to be a whiner or anything – in fact, i recently got a paypal request from someone who i would characterize as such and i was appalled, not so much by the request for support, but by the mention and comparison of this request to the amount that i tithe, when the two have absolutely nothing to do with each other and as such, they have no business being in the same breath…

anyway, i don’t want to be a whiner, i’m just being honest… i think that i do good things with these interviews and features and, when i write them, reviews and such… i’m just starting to wonder, as i’m no longer covering costs, if it’s what i should be doing with my time… i guess time will tell…

FOOTBALL (WHO TO ROOT FOR)

moving on… i’m not entirely certain who i’ll be rooting for while watching the Superbowl this year… on the one hand, The Patriots are in my top tier of teams (Bills, Packers, Patriots, & Redskins) and they should, by default, be who i favor… HOWEVER, i love seeing an underdog pull off the upset… and i hate how imbalanced the two conferences have become… the AFC has the “best” five teams in the league, probably… and it would be great to see Eli Manning, who get so trashed by the papers week in and week out, come in and knock out Tom Brady, the golden boy, the guy who everybody praises unabashedly… so, i’ll talk more about the game later, but that’s where i am right now… undecided…

WORD OF THE DAY

Joshua 5: 13-15

This is one of my FAVORITE passages of Scripture… it’s one of those slap you in the face, pour a bucket of ice water over your head, grab you by the ears and scream in your face type of passages to me… it’s a wake up call for all the times when i get ahead of myself, when i think too highly of myself and when i elevate myself to a level of righteousness that i don’t deserve… and i wrote a Left to Write on this a while back, so i won’t go too crazy here today, but i just love the reality check of a response that Joshua gets here…

He looks off in the distance and sees this warrior… sword drawn and probably quite intimidating… Joshua’s gotta be pretty scared right about now as he questions this mysterious soldier’s loyalty… “Are you for us or for our enemies?”… logical question, right? But that’s because we see things in limited dimensions… in our eyes, there can be only 2 sides… you have to be on my side or on their side…. it’s always you vs. me, us vs. them, Roe vs. Wade, McCain vs. Romney, spy vs. spy, etc… and i love this response… “Neither”… boom! just blows your mind and redefines your entire sense of reality… i love it…

IN OTHER WORDS

When the Game Is Over, It All Goes Back in the Box by John Ortberg

Chapter 5: Untie Your Ropes…

how about that… this chapter just totally speaks to where i’m at right now… Ortberg is talking about things that keep us from achieving our goals, flying in an airplane in his example here, and i’m just going to quote him here today because this sentence deserves a bit of rumination…

Ortberg says: “If I am not yet living according to what I believe matters most, it is no accident. There are forces or habits that have a deep hold on me that I will have to get rid of.”… this is very true…

DON’T GO AWAY MAD (JUST GO AWAY)

Well, this week has pretty much gotten away from me, but i did manage to post a Walk TRu of the first two Jon Foreman EPs

COMING SOON

at theTRu you’ll see a new Left to Write, the start of the Year in Re:TRu and much more… and i’ll probably ask you some questions about what i do….

OH, ONE MORE THING…

i mentioned a while back that Skillet has a new drummer now and i noticed that there’s a lot of Skillet fans…er, panheads out there looking for Skillet news… so here’s one for you… it seems to me that there will not be a new album from the group until John Cooper is done moonlighting as Titan, the captain of the new American Gladiators. . .



am i right?

peace… love… bdg…